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So I've finished my Illustration homework, except for this one area across the top of the story illustration. I can't figure out what to put up there. It's empty right now. I'm not even sure what color to put there. It's irking me, and I don't want to put something in and regret it. I might leave it and ask Prof. Mayer for a suggestion, but at the same time, I don't want to go in with an incomplete drawing. It's happened in class plenty of times already, but I don't want to add myself to the list.

No boss tomorrow, did I mention? He practically ran out to the elevator bay when he realized I left to tell me. It was covered under a "Have a nice holiday weekend!", but it was a thinly-veiled attempt to see if I had any plan to leave today instead of going to work tomorrow. I told him I planned to leave on Friday, but didn't know what time, and left it at that. Honestly, I could stay at work all day and take the train up. I don't want to touch the bus. This is not the weekend for the bus. Wouldn't have to worry about it at all, but Mom was planning on taking Oliver to PA very early Friday morning. As far as I know, that's still the plan.

Getting my braids taken out today and getting my hair washed, just to get the braids out. I'm going to put them back in, but I'd rather go to the braiding salon with my hair already out and washed. I'll do it next week if I still have the money. Hopefully my hair doesn't take too long or Follicles isn't very busy, because Oliver woke me up at 5:30 this morning and I never really did get back to sleep.

Goddamnit.

So here's here things stand.

Graphic Narrative (the next step from Illustration) is being held in the fall on Wednesday mornings, from 9:15-12:45--AKA, the same time I'm taking Illustration now. The way Wednesdays would be, were I to take GN, I would go to class in the morning, get out near 1pm, and have five hours to kill before English at 6pm. It would make no sense to go back to work during those five hours. I wouldn't get to work until roughly 1:30 and would leave at 4pm (if I keep my current schedule) or 5pm (if I changed it to a normal 9-5 thing), and I wouldn't want to be there anyway, which would just piss me off more, and I'd probably skip work anyway. I'd end up having to keep the 20% cut in work schedule/pay to take the class, and have a stupid amount of time between classes, because there's nothing I can take between those two classes on Wednesdays. Everything conflicts with something. And I don't know when Graphic Narrative will be held again. It took forever for Illustration to be offered. The school puts the class on the schedule of classes and then doesn't allow it to be taught because they don't think it'll fill up. It took Illustration five years to actually take place, from what Prof. Mayer said.

Also had a chat with Prof. Mayer, and she essentially told me what everyone else has: It's my life, and maybe quitting the job would be a good thing, because it'd allow me to take the classes I want, and it's about what I want and not what everyone else wants. "You don't have a job when you're doing something you love," she told me. And believe me,  the SECOND I had the chance, I'd go into the boss's office and tell him I quit. If Mom walked in here right now and said "You know what? I don't need your money", I'd be at work bright and early on Monday, just waiting for the boss to come in so I can give him my two weeks' notice. 

My problem is everyone else. My problem is Mom saying she can't handle the rent on her own (even though we're being charged a surcharge because our combined income is over the limit) along with the other bills she pays. My problem is the fact that I've got a dog now and need at least a part-time job to keep him. My problem is, at the moment, being the only one who is definitely bringing in money regularly (because god knows when the hell the MTA is going to stop screwing around with Mom's money).

And Mom's response when I told her about the time of GN, and the English class, and the time difference between them? "No, that's not going to work." And I have a feeling what she means is "Yeah, don't bother with that. Keep what you have" with a side of "You'll bring in more money that way".

WTF. Why. Seriously.

I'm not a happy CJ right now. I don't know what to do.

EDIT: Okay, I'll just have to stick with the 20%. I'll either have to kill time at the school, or come home after class and go back out to the school later for English. -_-

I didn't drop a class after adding Graphic Narrative. I'm not sure what the workload is for CEP121. I might ask (maybe ask the person who's showing up as my teacher), and decide whether to keep it or drop it so I go back to 12 credits in the 12-week session. As of right now, I'm registered for a total of 18 credits for the entire fall semester.