Breakthrough
May. 29th, 2008 06:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
meitantei_cjI realized something today. And I mean really realized it, because I think I have said this before.
I'm content.
This is undoubtedly a result of the meds. I know it is, and I accept that. But I haven't come home in a bad mood, I haven't gotten TOO irritated at things (although it hits every once in a while, but that's expected), and my entire mood has gone through a serious shift. I don't have that urgent "must escape now" feeling I've been suffering from. Between the medication altering my mood (for the better of course) and having all that money in my account Wednesday (and the knowledge that, thanks to the retroactive pay increase and the increase I got for being below my salary grade's pay rate, I bring home $900 every two weeks), I'm content to stay where I am right now, and just save money and take classes here and there, take a trip or something. The current state of our economy doesn't hurt: At least with a state job, they can't let me go barring something REALLY ridiculous happening. If I were to go anywhere else, I could be dropped two weeks later. (And I could go back to my job since it wouldn't be past the six month mark yet, but I might as well just stay where I am.)
So, yeah. Is it a bad thing that it took an anti-depressant to make me feel better? ^^; It's working, and that's all that matters to me right now. Even Mom's noticed a total change in me.
Anyway, I'm getting tired, so I'm going to get something to nibble on before I get too tired. Shall keep myself awake for a bit by playing Bookworm.
I'm content.
This is undoubtedly a result of the meds. I know it is, and I accept that. But I haven't come home in a bad mood, I haven't gotten TOO irritated at things (although it hits every once in a while, but that's expected), and my entire mood has gone through a serious shift. I don't have that urgent "must escape now" feeling I've been suffering from. Between the medication altering my mood (for the better of course) and having all that money in my account Wednesday (and the knowledge that, thanks to the retroactive pay increase and the increase I got for being below my salary grade's pay rate, I bring home $900 every two weeks), I'm content to stay where I am right now, and just save money and take classes here and there, take a trip or something. The current state of our economy doesn't hurt: At least with a state job, they can't let me go barring something REALLY ridiculous happening. If I were to go anywhere else, I could be dropped two weeks later. (And I could go back to my job since it wouldn't be past the six month mark yet, but I might as well just stay where I am.)
So, yeah. Is it a bad thing that it took an anti-depressant to make me feel better? ^^; It's working, and that's all that matters to me right now. Even Mom's noticed a total change in me.
Anyway, I'm getting tired, so I'm going to get something to nibble on before I get too tired. Shall keep myself awake for a bit by playing Bookworm.
