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Oct. 17th, 2004 02:17 pmOn my way home. Lost my connection earlier because Dad cut it off... so sorry, Zoi, if I worried you.
Oct. 17th, 2004
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Oct. 17th, 2004 06:54 pmSo Dad cut my internet connection at the house, solely to piss me off. I know this. He stuck his head in the doorway and said, "This room isn't clean." (It wasn't spotless. It was clean.) "I hope you're not online." You know how a person can sound so smug you want to strangle them? That's how he sounded. I heard him going down into the basement after he left, but it didn't hit me that he was pulling out the router until after it happened. He put it back on before we left, but I'd already packed up the laptop by then. He broke my downloads, and I was trying to talk with Zoi when he pulled out the adapter for the router. And when I asked Craig if Dad cut the connection, Craig reported back to me that Dad said, "Yeah, I cut the connection. Go ahead, mouth off. I dare you to mouth off."
I almost did. Almost.
Something crawled up my father's ass and died. I swear. I almost told him that and damn-near ordered him to turn it back on. But I didn't.
So I held a silent protest, as I tend to do, because I don't let my anger out the way I should. I put on Tainted Lovers from GitarooMan (heavy metal song) and repeated it with the volume up so I couldn't hear anything going on outside my room. I tried to draw. When I was done, I threw on some clothes and went for a walk with B'z blasting in my ears. I never just go for walks. I need to do it more often before it gets really cold. It didn't really help, as I was just as pissed off when I returned as when I left.
And I wore that orange shirt I bought the other week. The "stupidity" one. The only time he saw me though was when I had my sweatshirt zipped up, since I was going outside.
He came into my room to apologize shortly before we left (I was playing Tainted Lovers by then on the PS2), and I told him I wasn't trying to openly defy him or anything, but he said, "Well, no, I said I wanted the room clean by 12:30 (or whatever time it was), and it wasn't clean."
Yeah. I'm putting time limits on him, too. See how he likes being an adult and having to deal with that sort of thing. I'm 22. Shove off. And more than half the mess in that room is the cause my brother and those kids.
Then he said he can't make Craig do something (like clean his room, which apparently he was supposed to be doing...? No one told me this...) if Craig sees me not doing it. Which is funny, seeing as he likes to force Craig to church even though I don't go.
So now, because I couldn't finish the downloads I had going, I've had to resume them and have absolutely anemic download rates. One thing is at 89%, and it's going to take another five hours to complete. Before it would've only taken an hour. The other would've been done before we left.
I'm just not in the mood today. The world just wants to push my buttons lately, and I'm sorry for being moody and bothering people. I'll just keep it to myself. I complain too much. Just ignore me.
I almost did. Almost.
Something crawled up my father's ass and died. I swear. I almost told him that and damn-near ordered him to turn it back on. But I didn't.
So I held a silent protest, as I tend to do, because I don't let my anger out the way I should. I put on Tainted Lovers from GitarooMan (heavy metal song) and repeated it with the volume up so I couldn't hear anything going on outside my room. I tried to draw. When I was done, I threw on some clothes and went for a walk with B'z blasting in my ears. I never just go for walks. I need to do it more often before it gets really cold. It didn't really help, as I was just as pissed off when I returned as when I left.
And I wore that orange shirt I bought the other week. The "stupidity" one. The only time he saw me though was when I had my sweatshirt zipped up, since I was going outside.
He came into my room to apologize shortly before we left (I was playing Tainted Lovers by then on the PS2), and I told him I wasn't trying to openly defy him or anything, but he said, "Well, no, I said I wanted the room clean by 12:30 (or whatever time it was), and it wasn't clean."
Yeah. I'm putting time limits on him, too. See how he likes being an adult and having to deal with that sort of thing. I'm 22. Shove off. And more than half the mess in that room is the cause my brother and those kids.
Then he said he can't make Craig do something (like clean his room, which apparently he was supposed to be doing...? No one told me this...) if Craig sees me not doing it. Which is funny, seeing as he likes to force Craig to church even though I don't go.
So now, because I couldn't finish the downloads I had going, I've had to resume them and have absolutely anemic download rates. One thing is at 89%, and it's going to take another five hours to complete. Before it would've only taken an hour. The other would've been done before we left.
I'm just not in the mood today. The world just wants to push my buttons lately, and I'm sorry for being moody and bothering people. I'll just keep it to myself. I complain too much. Just ignore me.
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Oct. 17th, 2004 08:27 pmCleaning and listening to this song. I downloaded the OST while I was browsing BoxTorrents. They have the series up too, so I may download that soon... but not yet. I'm downloading the first 27 episodes of Detective Conan, and it's going to amount to 5 gigs when it's done, so that's top priority right now. They're subtitled... and since FUNimation isn't giving me DVDs yet, I'll just download the episodes. Craig never wants to watch them subbed anyway... he was flipping back and forth between Japanese and English dialogue when we were watching one of the DVDs yesterday, but he won't watch a whole episode in Japanese, much less a season.
I need to get an external hard drive. A big one... something that's at least 40 gigs. The 80 gig HD that Mom has in her computer though... even that looks inviting. Too much of my space on this computer goes to programs... and at the rate I download MP3s and OSTs and movies, there's no way I can keep sticking these things on CD-RWs. I have enough CDs as it is lying around this room.
This song... I love it. I can't even listen to the rest of the OST because I'm stuck on this and a few other songs.
And Mom couldn't get her wireless keyboard and mouse to work. She thinks Marcia may have put something on the computer or done something to mess it up. I say Mom should password the computer. Marcia puts things on and doesn't ask, and one of these days something's going to go on that'll royally screw up the computer, and it'll be her ass. >_> And she has her own computer, in fact she has a Dell Latitude D600, my model laptop. She doesn't need Mom's computer, but she uses it anyway, and keeps adding things to it. She doesn't ask at all. I say we cut her off. Force her to bring her own computer, and when she finally screws something up, it'll happen on her stuff. If you're going to have that little respect for others' belongings, you don't need to use them.
Anyway... back to work.
I need to get an external hard drive. A big one... something that's at least 40 gigs. The 80 gig HD that Mom has in her computer though... even that looks inviting. Too much of my space on this computer goes to programs... and at the rate I download MP3s and OSTs and movies, there's no way I can keep sticking these things on CD-RWs. I have enough CDs as it is lying around this room.
This song... I love it. I can't even listen to the rest of the OST because I'm stuck on this and a few other songs.
And Mom couldn't get her wireless keyboard and mouse to work. She thinks Marcia may have put something on the computer or done something to mess it up. I say Mom should password the computer. Marcia puts things on and doesn't ask, and one of these days something's going to go on that'll royally screw up the computer, and it'll be her ass. >_> And she has her own computer, in fact she has a Dell Latitude D600, my model laptop. She doesn't need Mom's computer, but she uses it anyway, and keeps adding things to it. She doesn't ask at all. I say we cut her off. Force her to bring her own computer, and when she finally screws something up, it'll happen on her stuff. If you're going to have that little respect for others' belongings, you don't need to use them.
Anyway... back to work.
Friggin' finally.
Oct. 17th, 2004 11:52 pmDownloads I've been trying to get all weekend are done.
Anyway. This anime has really good music. Like this song. Lovelove. And this is why I need that external drive. I just up and decided to download that OST because it was there and I keep hearing about the anime.
I want more of Negima!. The next one's not coming out until February. That's just evil...
Bed. Have two CDs to make in the morning... one for this and one for Full Moon... and I've started on a sketch and don't want to give myself the opportunity to start working on it again. The nocturnal artist is out again. Night.
And Zoi? Thanks. <3
Anyway. This anime has really good music. Like this song. Lovelove. And this is why I need that external drive. I just up and decided to download that OST because it was there and I keep hearing about the anime.
I want more of Negima!. The next one's not coming out until February. That's just evil...
Bed. Have two CDs to make in the morning... one for this and one for Full Moon... and I've started on a sketch and don't want to give myself the opportunity to start working on it again. The nocturnal artist is out again. Night.
And Zoi? Thanks. <3