Can I stay home tomorrow?
Jun. 20th, 2006 12:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
meitantei_cjOkay. That episode was completely retarded. I'd watch it again, but I've wasted time playing Meteos and think I shouldn't. The quality of my sleep last night was horrible, and Joan won't take another day off tomorrow just because I want her to. She needs to, though. Like, really. Take a week, stay off her feet, start thinking of retirement... She can't do that yet, she blew through a lot of her time because of the whole broken ankle thing.
Meh. Can't stay home anyway. Have things to do at work, including the processing of one $2mil+ check I'd like just a portion of. Just a smidge. Lil' bit.
Was talking with Tas about the Investigator exam. I know I've got at least one answer wrong; I remember the answer I put, and Tas said it's different because of something that was actually in the reading passage, so oops. But I at least know I got the logic puzzle right. No answer key or anything yet, of course, but I know for certain I got it.
It was about eight people (Fred, Georgia, Howard, Irene, John, Kenneth, Linda, Mary) sitting around a table, and what order they sat in. Howard sat in seat one, Georgia had to sit next to Howard (either side of him), Fred had to sit between two males, Linda couldn't sit next to whoever, Kenneth couldn't sit next to any women or John, someone else couldn't sit next to John (Tas asked me, "And what was wrong with John?"), blah blah blah. Really involved question. I loved it, though. I love logic puzzles. And I got it wrong the first time--I went back when I was done with the test. Was the first thing I went to. And I saw a flaw in what I'd worked out, and redid the whole thing from scratch. I was telling Tas, they put a trick statement in there to confuse you. (Well, and something else that really didn't need to be stated--extra information.) They said one of the girls sat in a lower seat number next to another girl. Tas and I immediately thought it meant said girl had to sit in, literally, a low seat number. It didn't work out though, when I checked it over. There was no way she could've sat there and had everything else be right.
I don't think Tas was getting it when I told her. Whoever the girl was that had to sit in a lower seat number, it was a lower seat number compared to the girl next to her. It just meant Girl A was to the right of Girl B. Any other way, and it wouldn't have worked. Whenever she gets the answers back (she asked for them, I forgot), I'll show it to her. The whole thing is, yes, Mary was in the 5th seat. Answer to the question is True.
Kinda wish there were more logic things on the test. Should look for some books or something. Sudoku's fun and all, but maybe something not involving numbers so much... never was one for numbers.
I don't want to sleep tonight. Not sure what it is, I just don't want to, even if I do need it.
Oh, I know I didn't say... but thanks for the comments.
When I was at Nintendo World with the boys, I saw that they had those rubber wristbands--three of them. Yellow, Courage; black, Power; and white, Wisdom. I snatched all three up, of course, me being a Zelda nerd. Immediately gave Craig Power, and next time I see Matt, I might give him Courage. But Wisdom is mine--I've been wearing it since. I suppose I'm hoping it'll actually give me some wisdom one of these days. I still have a lot of growing to do.
I don't know. There are things people see in me, and they're hard for me to see myself. I don't believe people when they tell me certain things. I hear them, I read them, and I smile, but my brain doesn't process it the way it should. Somewhere underneath, something goes, "Yeah, bullshit." Maybe not that extreme, though. Does that make sense? I just don't think I'm anything special. Maybe the self-esteem is still a little on the low side.
This is what I was doing over the weekend--sitting around and reasoning things out. Have to do that occasionally, just sit and relax and think. After the initial crashing of my systems, so to speak, it's all I really can do. I never have the energy to do much else. Not good to do it when it's almost midnight, but whatever. I'd already pretty much decided I'd go to bed then, maybe a bit afterward.
Well, definitely so, now. It's 11:56. Midnight ain't gonna happen.
I'm a little too hard on myself, I think. I get frustrated with where I am and the fact that I'm not going anywhere fast when I want to more than anything... and I just get more and more pissed at myself until I experience a meltdown. It's a vicious cycle. Over and over again, and it'll stay that way unless I do something about it. I've never really been much of a mover, though. I just kinda get stagnant. Stability above all things. I am such a Taurus. As much as I want to just go, I feel like I'd rather stick around and be sure of what I have. Some people can just get up and do what they need to be happy. With me, it involves more than that. It's more like, Okay, I could leave. I could pick up and travel for a while. I could do this, or that. I could have tried to get a job on that NCL ship when they were having that open house, spent five months away from home at a time with one-month breaks inbetween. But what would I go back to?
The constant need to know my surroundings keeps me here. I think. Even if I did pick up and go do something, I'd be worrying. Honestly, I haven't grown up enough yet, or it's just in my nature to be cautious.
I envy the people who just do what they have to do. There are a bunch of you. And when I say I don't believe certain things you say to me, that is one of the things I'm talking about. When you say I'm strong, I immediately disagree. If I was strong, I wouldn't be such a coward. I'm an eternal optimist when it comes to everyone else, but regarding myself? Never. Trust me, it'll be okay, things will work out, you'll be fine. I won't.
It's something I need to change about myself. I will eventually. Even if it takes me years, I will get to that point. Other things have taken me years to get over, and I've gotten over them. This is no different... it's just taking a little longer. Perseverence is the key, right? I'm not much of a fighter, but I can try.
Meh. Can't stay home anyway. Have things to do at work, including the processing of one $2mil+ check I'd like just a portion of. Just a smidge. Lil' bit.
Was talking with Tas about the Investigator exam. I know I've got at least one answer wrong; I remember the answer I put, and Tas said it's different because of something that was actually in the reading passage, so oops. But I at least know I got the logic puzzle right. No answer key or anything yet, of course, but I know for certain I got it.
It was about eight people (Fred, Georgia, Howard, Irene, John, Kenneth, Linda, Mary) sitting around a table, and what order they sat in. Howard sat in seat one, Georgia had to sit next to Howard (either side of him), Fred had to sit between two males, Linda couldn't sit next to whoever, Kenneth couldn't sit next to any women or John, someone else couldn't sit next to John (Tas asked me, "And what was wrong with John?"), blah blah blah. Really involved question. I loved it, though. I love logic puzzles. And I got it wrong the first time--I went back when I was done with the test. Was the first thing I went to. And I saw a flaw in what I'd worked out, and redid the whole thing from scratch. I was telling Tas, they put a trick statement in there to confuse you. (Well, and something else that really didn't need to be stated--extra information.) They said one of the girls sat in a lower seat number next to another girl. Tas and I immediately thought it meant said girl had to sit in, literally, a low seat number. It didn't work out though, when I checked it over. There was no way she could've sat there and had everything else be right.
I don't think Tas was getting it when I told her. Whoever the girl was that had to sit in a lower seat number, it was a lower seat number compared to the girl next to her. It just meant Girl A was to the right of Girl B. Any other way, and it wouldn't have worked. Whenever she gets the answers back (she asked for them, I forgot), I'll show it to her. The whole thing is, yes, Mary was in the 5th seat. Answer to the question is True.
Kinda wish there were more logic things on the test. Should look for some books or something. Sudoku's fun and all, but maybe something not involving numbers so much... never was one for numbers.
I don't want to sleep tonight. Not sure what it is, I just don't want to, even if I do need it.
Oh, I know I didn't say... but thanks for the comments.
When I was at Nintendo World with the boys, I saw that they had those rubber wristbands--three of them. Yellow, Courage; black, Power; and white, Wisdom. I snatched all three up, of course, me being a Zelda nerd. Immediately gave Craig Power, and next time I see Matt, I might give him Courage. But Wisdom is mine--I've been wearing it since. I suppose I'm hoping it'll actually give me some wisdom one of these days. I still have a lot of growing to do.
I don't know. There are things people see in me, and they're hard for me to see myself. I don't believe people when they tell me certain things. I hear them, I read them, and I smile, but my brain doesn't process it the way it should. Somewhere underneath, something goes, "Yeah, bullshit." Maybe not that extreme, though. Does that make sense? I just don't think I'm anything special. Maybe the self-esteem is still a little on the low side.
This is what I was doing over the weekend--sitting around and reasoning things out. Have to do that occasionally, just sit and relax and think. After the initial crashing of my systems, so to speak, it's all I really can do. I never have the energy to do much else. Not good to do it when it's almost midnight, but whatever. I'd already pretty much decided I'd go to bed then, maybe a bit afterward.
Well, definitely so, now. It's 11:56. Midnight ain't gonna happen.
I'm a little too hard on myself, I think. I get frustrated with where I am and the fact that I'm not going anywhere fast when I want to more than anything... and I just get more and more pissed at myself until I experience a meltdown. It's a vicious cycle. Over and over again, and it'll stay that way unless I do something about it. I've never really been much of a mover, though. I just kinda get stagnant. Stability above all things. I am such a Taurus. As much as I want to just go, I feel like I'd rather stick around and be sure of what I have. Some people can just get up and do what they need to be happy. With me, it involves more than that. It's more like, Okay, I could leave. I could pick up and travel for a while. I could do this, or that. I could have tried to get a job on that NCL ship when they were having that open house, spent five months away from home at a time with one-month breaks inbetween. But what would I go back to?
The constant need to know my surroundings keeps me here. I think. Even if I did pick up and go do something, I'd be worrying. Honestly, I haven't grown up enough yet, or it's just in my nature to be cautious.
I envy the people who just do what they have to do. There are a bunch of you. And when I say I don't believe certain things you say to me, that is one of the things I'm talking about. When you say I'm strong, I immediately disagree. If I was strong, I wouldn't be such a coward. I'm an eternal optimist when it comes to everyone else, but regarding myself? Never. Trust me, it'll be okay, things will work out, you'll be fine. I won't.
It's something I need to change about myself. I will eventually. Even if it takes me years, I will get to that point. Other things have taken me years to get over, and I've gotten over them. This is no different... it's just taking a little longer. Perseverence is the key, right? I'm not much of a fighter, but I can try.
