Inspiration

We have to do an audio essay for WAM, and the prof said it could be creative nonfiction. Since my dysphoria feels aren't going anywhere, I'm going to do something on them, probably in the format of a story about someone else. (Although my class is small enough that if I did want to do it in first person, I don't think it would matter much. And Becca is one of my classmates, and I've already told her I've been having gender issues, so there's one person that wouldn't judge me. And she's from Portland. They're like the most liberal people ever. XD;) I had been thinking of how to incoporate the element of silence into my project. We each listened to an episode of This American Life that we picked on our own, then listened to TAL: #1 Party School in class, and neither of the ones I heard used silence. Like, the narrator might have stopped talking, but there was still music behind them, and I don't want to do something like that: I want silence. And I thought about having a bunch of voices start up from a soft whisper and just get louder and louder and then just get cut off. And the gender thing just made sense. I just know I don't want it to be boring. I want listeners to be engaged.

I'm also going to get my friend Liz, one of the co-presidents of Trans* Parachute United (which I'll likely co-run next year with Laura because EVERYONE'S LEAVING D:), to say some things about dysphoria for me to include in the essay. They (I'm using singular they here--I still can't help thinking of them as female just because that's how I knew them when we met, when I came to visit the school and we had lunch together, but I'm being more aware of their preferred pronouns) are asexual, agender, aromantic, and neutois. They know all about dysphoria. ^^; But it's good to have some kind of outside source for these essays, evidence, so that'll work. I might read something from a website, too, or find a video on the web about it from some kind of professional source.

So yeah, that's due in six days. A script is due on Tuesday morning. I'm more worried about the ceramics. You know Bethany's bribing us to get everything in class done on time by offering to cook us steak?! XD; I'm not even joking. She calls it High Steaks (and Chicken, because two girls aren't steak fans). We have to get everything done on time, all of us, and the pieces can't be crap. They have to be good pieces. Basically, she's not the bad guy anymore, we're all bad guys to each other. I was so amused when I walked in and they were talking about steak. I hope I can hold up my end of things. I didn't go to the studio at all today--I made contact prints (that didn't come out as black as I'd have liked) and one print (that's more sepia-toned instead of black and white, but I liked it. It was the only shot out of the first roll that I wanted to print)--but I'll be there all day tomorrow. I'm taking one for the team and wearing my more fitted gray jeans because they already have clay stains on them. ^^; I'm going to hand-built a few things, then make some attempts at the wheel (worried about making lids on the wheel, not sure I'll remember how to do everything!).

I want to draw tonight like whoa. I still have Jake to finish coloring, and a pic of Reilly and Ash that I abandoned to finish, but I want new stuff.

OH, and also, I've been accepted into the Juniata College circle of Omicron Delta Kappa, the national leadership honor society. There's gonna be an initiation ceremony on April 7th. :D I'm so proud of myself, yo. It's like, validation. This is how I wish my first go at college had been, but that's okay. I'm doing it now. I can put this on my resume. That's two honor societies. And I'll be running one or two clubs for at least two semesters next year (possibly helping run AWoL for the fall since the two officers that aren't graduating will be abroad in France and Ireland). But anyway, yeah, happy CJ, despite all the work I have to do! I'm going to put photography on hold for the next week--the assignment isn't due until the 27th, so I have time for that.

(And holy shit, after the 27th, I'll have ONE MORE WEEK of classes before break!)