And now I get to hear about "the rose thing" and how the girl across the hall has three of them and how Heather tripped over A's and oh my god, can tomorrow be over already so people can stop talking about it? Singles Awareness Day, yo. Gimme chocolate and go away. As much as I'd love to get close to someone, I've been hearing nothing but drama from Heather about various people she knows, and one girl who's in AWoL has come up here twice this week to complain about her girlfriend (although the complaints sound completely warranted--girl got a dog knowing Cheyenne hates dogs! And they LIVE together. Nope) and how much they've been fighting and the girl's been smothering her, and Heather kept going "Yep, that's exactly what happened with me and my ex." I just turned the volume up on my headphones so I could try to ignore it. Relationships good. Drama baaaaaad.

I know, with all relationships there is some drama. I'm not looking for perfection, as much of an idealist as I am.

Also: Did a Google Image search for chest binders. (When I get my refund...) Found a pic of a Dave cosplay. Homestuck, you are everywhere. Speaking of which, I need icons. And MasterYorgi/Octopimp put up the funniest video involving Jake's Page panties. XD;

The dysphoria (screw filters, don't care who reads this) hasn't gone anywhere yet. I've been hiding my hair under beanie and slouchy hats (which I need more of) and attempting to look flat-chested. I've decided to embrace it. The longer it goes on, the more I just shrug it off and say "Fuck it." I know how I feel comfortable and I know how I feel inside. I'm happy wearing looser clothing and having my hair pinned down/barely visible. I actually took my hat off at one point in my room because it was hot, and I ended up putting it back on because I kept having to rake my dreads back. It was just like, "nope, back into the cave with you."

You know what I have to do over the next week? Write a script for an audio essay and record it, make 15 good vessels with lids, process my second roll of film, make a contact sheet for my first roll, and see if I can make some decent prints out of those negatives. (That was the experimental roll, so there may not be great pictures on it.) Holy SHIT am I going to be busy. I have all day Friday to spend in the studio and likely will. I did find an artist who doesn't throw her pieces on the wheel, which is awesome for me to see. Like, everyone throws, and it's aggravating when you don't have the skill yet. Yet. Anyway, she mainly makes pinch pots/plates/whatever, and I really like her stuff. It's shown me that pieces can have "imperfections" and still look good. Because they're pinched with her fingers and not thrown on the wheel, her pieces aren't smooth, but slightly bumpy, textured. That's how hand-built things are. You can smooth them, but there's always going to be a little something. Her name's Emily Schroeder Willis.

Friday night there's a performance at the theater, and then later that night I'll be going, hopefully with a few friends, to see Warm Bodies at the movie theater in town. After that, all of the work. All of it.

We did the Harlem Shake in the cafeteria today. So many hilarious costumes. One girl was dressed as the Pope and her Bible was an Organic Chemistry book. XDDD I had my Rilakkuma bear (bought at Setsucon) practically strapped to my head so (and hopefully if I'm on camera the effect worked the way I wanted it to) it looked like a person with a bear head dancing. Ways to be involved and not show your face, haha. Sophie and Sarah came by afterward, after we got some dinner, and we went to FF.net and found hilariously weird Skyward Sword fanfiction. And they both finally got to see Hyrule Historia.

My POE (major) is probably going to be approved: Donna, one of my advisors, is ready to sign it, and then I just have to give it to Bethany, then bring it to the Registrar, and I'll be able to get that out of my hair and just focus on my classes, and NOT on whether or not I'll actually be leaving this school in a year. Quite important. But I can't see the Registrar not accepting it.

I'm feeling more optimistic than I have in a while.